It is said that the perfect friendship comes once in a lifetime. The person who you confide in, trust, and experience your ups and downs together. Maybe this might have been ur perfect friendship, and it came to your life early... However its no longer there anymore. When will you understand that enough is enough and you need to let go? Its over. Talking about it continously wont bring it back to life; its going to bury it..deeper and deeper until it no longer exists.

The barriers you have created around you to protect yourself from hurting again came down.. so u could trust the next innocent person that came along your way; it didnt work out again so up go your barriers. They seem to come up automatically now xP Its your barriers that create your stubborness to accept what is going on around you, when are you going admit this or at least understand it?

All i can say is that iv tried.. tried to make it right between us. But your reactions just push me away and away and away. And you wonder why you havent got many friends. Its obvious isnt it?

In a friendship its about communication.. and good communication prevents misunderstandings. If you think of something then SAY it, dont leave it till its too late and just going to cause more conflict. Even though you are thinking this thought the other person doesnt know that.. unless they are a mind reader but there aren't many of those around :)

"To think outside the square" is a common expression meaning that you shouldnt think in the most typical way but instead imagine all the possibilities that could expand your thoughts. However your just thinking in a little brown cardboard box of yours, the place where your lack of common sense prehibits you from exploring deeper and further from your comfort zone.

Maybe in a year or two years time you might have grown out of this habit; but for now its here to stay. For good.

Im sick of talking about this topic- but its only healthy to let it out right? ;) I try to be calm when talking to you; for some reason you end up getting me annoyed it seems the only thing i can think of at the time is you. You got me pissed off; then u got me missing you but for what i dont know.. Maybe i just missed your company, our usual talks. But now im starting to feel nothing because i dont care anymore.

I dont care what you do behind that computer screen of yours. Im going to give up for good; and i know that i can and will unlike you. You can call me a bitch and hate me for life but at least i know that i have my supportive friends who will be there for me and i'll continue my life without being an overly emotional person.

There's so many things i wanna say.. so many things i want to DO.. but for now i'll just type away happily on the blog my identical twin and I created =]

As for now.. sayonara!

Yipee! i have my own secret messages too  = = "

<3 the blue.sky who has no extra clouds floating around x